xxxx

2009-09-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

i miss xelectrode
should i switch?

//MOVED

2009-07-30T23:36:00.001+08:00

Bunnies

I am going to...

2009-07-25T19:06:00.000+08:00

MOVE TO BLOODY TUMBLR! BLOGGERRRRRRR IS STILL A DICK.

Turn Around

2009-07-19T21:48:00.004+08:00

I miss Blue and Lee Ryan, omg his so kewt! He played a spoiled version of Breathe Easy. Haha. He's married now, and he looks very... UGH. Maybe that's how people look like when they're married. But he's still kewt. Haha. I remember the times growing up listening to Blue.

So, I've been to Msia during the weekends. I ate a lot! Ok... not really but just a little more than usual. I got some fresh air for awhile. I like school at the same time, i do find it a drag. So i'm letting time fly by so that when i know, i'll be somewhere new. School tomorrow, what a drag.

I miss jamming, I really do. CCA resumes this week, oh man. So that means i'll have lesser time to do stuff. Less time to play badminton with Adik, less time to sleep, less time to complete dumb homeworks. Have i been catching up with my playing? Nooooo. Oh em geeeez. :S

EH MY HOTTIE OF THE MOMENT!!!!!11

AH *MELTS!!!!* Korean + American the heart throbbing DENNIS O'NEIL! Haha, to all Korean lovers, this one more POWER! (L)

Before Long.

2009-07-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

I am bored to the max.
I've got things to blog about, but my mind goes blank.

School school school, i hope it closes down soon before anything happens to me. I sound selfish but i don't give a flying flute. I wanna read books to fill myself up, maybe Love novels to my preference. I'm just letting time fly by, to wait. As long as i could. I think i stay too quiet some times, it feels a lil awkward.

I get mad fast easily these few days, need to cool down a little. I am going far from here for awhile, I wanna get fresh air. FRESH AIR. FRESH AIR DAWGZ, I WANNA LAUGH AND SMILE AND LOVE. Like who knows? When? Why? How? Its all in God's hands. I've leave it to Him.

I wish I had a Youtube Channel that could entertain people, like Shane Dawson. Or if not that, maybe a face that's cute enough to have one. Becoz my blog's too boring, ain't it.

STFU GRANDMA.

Missing Pieces

2009-07-15T22:18:00.004+08:00

Damn, its been a long time since...
School has been alright so far, today was fine, and it was raining! Omg i love rain, so cooling better than the scorching heat. :P

I think Sabrina is an awesome friend, not forgetting Zona, Hafizah, Jing and Shazlin. Sabby insisted on paying the TYS book, like a zillion times, but i refused. Haha. (: Cinnamon melts tmrw. I planned to play badminton every single day to shed fats. Chemistry is a bitch because the teacher is. On the other hand, i have to quicken my pace in Maths.

Bloody hell, life passing by me like a bullet train. Like a bullet train. I wish i could fully put my attention to my studies, but some times, i wish i could day dream, but time's a factor, racing past all the time! But i won't stop now. I could hardly catch my breath, but i have to. Oh no, something's missing. And i think it's you. I need you so much closer. But where in the hell are you? I try hard to think whether i should just dial your number, and just talk to you. I want to hear you voice. Everytime, when i receive a text, i was just hoping, your name would pop up.
JUST HOPING.

Worth it

2009-07-12T22:03:00.005+08:00

Sup people, i just realised my blogskin's a little dumb. Endure for the moment alright?
Just to update yall, I finally managed to cut my hair after a gazillion years totally. I feel relieved cuz is thinner now. Okay okay, go try the NEW CINNAMON MELTS, its powersome! :D

I have the urge to watch Ice Age 3 - 3D. Someone belanja can? I wish.

Skool tmrw, so friggin boring plz.

Come back

2009-07-12T00:24:00.003+08:00

New skin, pretty cool eh? :D
Anyways, i got a view of the new house today. And we're living right opposite of CCKSS, which is totally good for my brother, cos he could wake up at 7.30 am and still not be late. Pfffttt, betch. I'll be expecting noise from the school, much noise. Noise as hell, prolly.

Other than that, its pretty boring! Compared to Yew Tee with all the happy people plus the useable facilities like Yew Tee point, whereas for that house, its only like one pathetic Macs and Mama shop. Omg, i want soyabean! :( I'll take advantage of being some where else after school not at home, or during the exam period, i'll be out somewhere else studying like a total geek betch. I'll have to wake up early and take a total of TWO buses to school. Sad la, of course. But i've gotta sacrifise.

I've completed art assignment, pwnsomeeeee.

Fix you

2009-07-10T22:44:00.004+08:00

Haha, am not transferring school babes. Just a possibility.
Okay anyways, school today was uber boring, besides Math, there wasn't any purpose to go to school. Who cares. Btw, after school, i don't know why, but me, Fyze and Shi Jie started bitching all of a sudden. Then we went up to fourth level to classroom 4A to talk, and without realising, we spent an hour and a half bitching. Haha! Bravo manzx.

Its funny how Shi Jie talks about other people who call him "the guy with the weird hair" and then he'll roll his eyes. Haha.

You always look good. :)

Just me.

2009-07-08T16:06:00.003+08:00

Start loving life, no matter what.

Trouble.

2009-07-06T22:14:00.003+08:00

My dad doesn't know ANYTHING about me, so why shouldn't he just shut up?!
Bloody hell. Like one dog like that.

Anyhoots, Youth Day was spent with mum in the afternoon and then followed by jamming. Same place, still the same great studio. This time, the guitar sounded better to me but i don't really know why. Every now and then, i think too much. Too much that it gets over the line, some times, its my own assumptions but i don't really care. Because some times this world is full with unexpected things anyway.

I am dreading Social Studies and History. And fyi, i am only moving in November. What the bloody? There might be a slight chance i'm transferring school. OH MY GOSH. Can you believe it... Life couldn't get any worser!

WOW WOO WEE

2009-07-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

I love life.

clickety clack

2009-07-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

Yo fo shizzles.
School's been good lately, thumbs up. As for today, went to the library to study with Zona Fyze and Jing. Great company. Solid maths sia, still can do by myself with full concentration some more, how cool is that? Zona insisted on a ride home, thanks babe! Loves.

And bout the "I'M MOVING!" thing, its true. Haha, yall sound like, "OMG MOVING WHERE SIA? PASIR RIS?" Its onlyyy Lot 1 dah. Haha. My gosh, i've been living for 10 years in yew tee and i'm expected to shift. I'll miss grabbing pearly soya milk from Yew Tee point, Jollibean is a pure disappointment. But its ok, that means i could at least have more company while walking to and fro.

I am feeling down lately but i still love life. Life ain't the same anymore at home, where's the trust gone to, mum? Have i ever lied to you? Somehow, i wish i could talk to you, mum. But i can't cos i'm afraid, and it'll get worser. Do i need to cry and beg just to convince you who i'm going out with? Why does it takes so much? Why is the price so much heavier? I can't believe you, Mum. And you think i'm that worthless and vulnerable? Think again, mum. I don't why you're acting like this. I'm not giving up on (l), and you'll never make me.

Back to School

2009-06-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

School was great. Anyhoots, to spread the news, i am moving! In two months time. I ain't happy because i love yew tee too much to get my ass moved, yknow?

Other than that, feelings haven't been poured out to someone who could listen. I am getting sick and tired of bottling my feelings up. Goodnight people. This is a dead blog, idgaff. Shall redecorate this soon, and update it with some love.

Tan Ting Tong.

2009-06-25T21:41:00.006+08:00

Awesome time with the Band. We haven't decided the real name of our band yet. Oh wells. We r fickle. ;)
Apparently it was supposed to be a Combined Section Outing, but many people can't make it, sadly. For example, Awal, who has a date with Prelims next week. We found an superultra suitable place to jam somewhere in Outram. Besides that, Marshall amplifiers FTW! :D

Tongue Tied, Save You, Overture No. 1 + I Kissed A Girl remix shite and more wasting time trying to mash up songs together. In all, it was GREAT. And soon we went on deciding on our band name. For eg. - The Thong Thongs (The Ting Tings) , The Sawadikaps, Tan Ting Tong, Sale, The Purple SwimmingSuit (The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus) and whatever quotes that was on the way. Eliz was playing Country for a moment. To be exact, a Thai citizen which couldn't make it. Bahaha! "In thailand, we need cry one side..."

"SAWDIKAAPP ~"
"Uh? what Cup? Negative cup?"

Til then... CIAOS!

Fly with Me

2009-06-23T22:43:00.008+08:00

Today was different. Went to study at Library @ Esplanade with 2 great people. :) Day spent was fruitful!
Mum was totally awful.

I've been playing DJ Max 2 on psp lately. Thanks to my Adik's influence. I should say i'm totally a noob at it cos i'm only at Level 5 - Free Style - 4 Buttons and i've got a lot to cover lehx. Omg, I've still got tonnes of homework to complete by i simply couldn't be bothered to burn the midnight oil and wreck my brain.

Supposed to have Ex Co meeting tomorrow but cancelled due to our "dear" h1n1. For what have all these diseases? And still i am no one to question all these. Lately i've been looking forward to...
POLY LIFE. How cool is that? I mean, like i'm sure its more free and you get to do more things and open new doors ahhh... and more freedom of course.

Some times, i wish i could fly. Literally fly.

Tease

2009-06-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

I know my blog is getting more boring, but let's make the best out of this holiday.
No more pictures in this blog til later because i don't think i'll be going out anytime soon.
FML.

Anyhoots, i've been helping mum cook at home, haha. (I know i am slow) And i should say onions hurt eyes. I'm growing older and older each day, i have to be responsible of things going on at home. That sucks yknow? Everyday, i'll wake up and i face new stuff. I'll have to face it. I like today's sunset and the morning today was very cooling. I like!

There's a slight possibility i'll be out of this house soon, because i hate staying under this roof.
Bye!

Bored.

2009-06-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

Just read the subtitles. Reminded me of Band Investiture loh.

Another video, i love this song. Plus Hayley on the vox? AWEMAZING.

Storm

2009-06-17T22:52:00.003+08:00

I think i am tired of same old things going on everyday.
Grandma's forever forgetful, adik's always on the psp(it was just confiscated today) and Mum is usually watching television. And when Dad comes home, he'll sit in front of the television for hours and then nags at me for sitting here in front of this machine.

And i still, can't complete one little homework. OMG WHAT'S WRONG NOW?

Let's talk about my day...
Had Long John Silvers for lunch, damn, it was good. So mum, adik and i went to the library. I browsed at a few photography mags, and thought of how i could improve on my skills. A DSLR would be nice. I want to go to a place where i could just shoot some good shots. I saw Zi Kai, haha.

Attempted to complete Math, ended up momsie wanted to move somewhere further from the flu-infected guy who was beside me. So we went off, and then came back to get some books and finally got back home. Had KFC for super late dinner. Here comes the fatz.

SIGHSIGHSIGH.

I don't know what to be without you around.
You're the only thing i know like the back of my hand.

Hey i wanna RANT.

2009-06-15T22:38:00.003+08:00

Sup people.
Today i woke up pretty late and overslept. I was intending to wake up at 7, but ended up waking at 1035 and got a morning lecture from mum. So early and i got a lecture. I think i've been sleeping at 12 or 1 for no reason at all lately, it sucks. Waiting for something that never comes in the end.

I am sick of it.

I started on homework a few days back, haven't had the time to complete not even one. Me, compared to the other students out there, i think i'm slacking. Pffft, who cares if i sound like a dork? Hello? My future here? I have got so many things in mind to do, but having too little time to actually wake myself up and do something. I've been hibernating, again! I love to procrastinate, mostly on work. I've gotta do something about that.

Tomorrow? Tomorrow? It'll never happen if you start tomorrow.
YOU HAVE GOTTA START NOW, MIL.

Look You In the Eye.

2009-06-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

I had Physics project in the morning. Got to Joelle's house and started taking videos for the project. It was i should say, alright, but it ain't fun. Joelle's was superb, lucky gurl she got to go America for two years some more. Haha. Who knows how nice the people there are? Who knows that the grass is much greener over there?

In the afternoon, went to meet Keith and then Elizabeth. Dong Hoon and Louis(?) joined too. Yeah, didn't really know why they went. Had lunch and then went to Penin to jam as usual. I needa work on 'Have A Nice Day'. Don't ask me why, i didn't really want that song. Accompanied Eliz for her late lunch and then went to Esplanade for a little teeny while. Walked around and went home. It was a pretty short day, and i wasn't really in my other mode. DARNZ.

Anyways, Combined Section Outing on Tuesday? Think so.

Fnugg Blue

2009-06-12T22:03:00.004+08:00

Tuba Sectionzz

Band Investiture ran by the Sec 3s was totally rad!
This is the totally the best investiture i have attended. The "Nobody"dance we did was hilarious and sooo embarrassing to watch, but according to Sir, Bandies are sporting! Haha.

At first we had practice, then lunched and then went straight for Recruit Party. Well at first i really didn't wanna take part, until finally the games got interesting and plus the enthu team members made it much more fun! Haha Kamhozx. :D Counting the number of pieces of paper being hidden around the canteen. Totally fun!

The video made was totally great, made me laugh a whole lot. Post bearers were next, Sectional Leader and Assistant Librarian were what i got. I'm happy with it. :) Congratz to the new majors, James, Debbie and Rani. The best of luck to youall!

Hey its allll good~ Xenia!

Peiwen!

Ying Hui! :D

Mindy! Awesomez

ZhenYi! WOOTZ~

Pei Si LAH SEH! :D

Baik ah AWAL! :)

Tricia! No flash on this babe plz. :B

EMO GURLL!

I WILL MISS AWAL BEING IN THE SECTION!!!!11 :O
Once again, thank you seniors. I'll miss all of you.

Beef.

2009-06-10T23:10:00.006+08:00

WORD OF THE DAY: CONSUMATION.

Okay, i overslept today. Oh well, Zona waited for me, hehe thanks babe! ^^
Anyways, we were a little a late, by 30mins for Math. Class was ultra funny.

Mdm Mah: Why is it different?
X: Because it's not the same.
Mdm Mah: CAN U DON'T be L-O-L???

Haha, MdmMah velly kewt. We got our bubble teas & bfast then went off History. Class was funny too. Its been long since i crapped with the usuals, and we camwhored a little after class. Video shooting with bandies after that, fun but tiring. Got home and had instant noodles.

Mr Tan: Okok, class, i think i won't be teaching you all this year.
*Everyone complains*
Mr tan: But i'll be teaching you next year la.
Zona: OF COURSE LA! Next year O Level what?! Cher, if u don't teach us, i'll burn down your house, i tell you!!!!

STUDENTS NOWADAYS.

And i've caught Hannah Mon-Tanah, its a pretty good movie, i know you may think i'm cheesy and stuff. But who doesn't watch Hannah? Lucas Till freaking cute, i melt. Haha, and i got 2 new tops. :)

Unfair man! Taylor Swift kissed Lucas Till before. Aiyoo, omg la. Then in Hannah Montana still can become Miley's love. Alamak, unfair la. He's so cute.

Dread

2009-06-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

Dream Oasis 'o9 was a fruitful one. And this one's different.

More responsibilities taken, and time was a factor. Overall, i think we all did pretty well compared to the rest of the rehearsals. Aww man, its the last performance with the seniors. Without the seniors, we sound like shite. As in really shite.

Thanks seniors for coming down, and put in all your efforts in performing and also made the effort to watch.
Y'ALL ZE BEST!! :D And getting all cramped up at stage left, felt like there wasn't any air but the people there made the situation all better.

The best part yesterday was the last part.
"Kranji Symphonic Band!" And all of us stood in front of a thousand ppl screaming for us, with our heads up high. I love my section. :D Even though it's only the three of us, its been like what? Tuba section is changing every year. And i bet my sec1s will be reducing. Maybe even 1 Sec 1 by the end of the year or not even one. :/ Let's not hope for the worst. Tuba section 'o9 rocks.

VICTORIOUS.

On a sidenote, i started on my homework.
BUT, i only did 4 questions.

Destined

2009-06-03T23:20:00.007+08:00

GUH!!!!
I LOVE and HATE LIFE at the same time.

I want to be more knowledgeable in relationships.
I like talking to you-know-who. :)
And i was pranked for 2 times in a row, damn, why am i so dumb?!

But still, P is for pwnsome. :D
I was pwned.

Beautiful Moon

2009-06-02T21:48:00.004+08:00

Finally a good time to post. :)
Malaysia trip i should say it was a quick one, but the heat was just UNBEARABLE!
The weather is much more worse then S'pore's, i tell you. By the time which reached kampong, it was already 1am-ish, so despite my sleepiness, i got up and swept the floor and saw rat crap. Man, it looked like some overburnt Twisties or smth. :/ And there were too many ANTZ zomg. And flies euww.

Overall, it was a good break.

Band for the whole week i guess, and we're improving! Do remember to go for the showcase eh? FRIDAY FRIDAY! After seeing Awal's art today, i got inspired. And i drew a pathetic Care Bare for today but who cares? To me, it looks fine man.

ONE LAST PIC BEFORE I GO OFF,

Presenting the role models, Basyirah and Rani.

Let it Roll.

2009-06-02T00:24:00.004+08:00

The trip to Malacca was alright. Took some time off to clean and clear my thoughts.
I hate M'sian mats ok, damn dizguzting plz. XP

DO U LIKE THESE OCTOPUS-Y LEAVES?

I have no mood to blog, will do so tmr ok? TEEHEE. Bye lovebirds.

Six Months

2009-05-28T16:52:00.005+08:00

I overslept today and in total i missed 2 SS, 2 Chemistry, 2 Maths and 1 English periods. Darn, i was so tired after wrecking my brain last night doing Maths and woke up at 9-ish today. :/ Nothing special happened today so far, just planning for the weekends to go to M'sia. My dad pesters me to skip band tomorrow, and i just can't cos its crucial. How should i explain??

Lunch with Zona, Jing and Fyze was great even though it was in school cos we talked bout our old days back when we were in primary school, haha. Had band after that and to tell you something we had the Sec 3 interview, damn, it sucked to the core of the max. Sir talked about Swine Flu in the middle of the interview, HOW GREAT! No link, man..

Alright, this made me laugh. Cos the other guy called himself the "Asian Kris Allen lookalike!"
Hah! Not really lah... -_-

And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Run, Don't Walk

2009-05-25T21:57:00.004+08:00

Run don't walk the sky is falling through
Don't talk, tonight I'm so confused
I'm lost, I'm lost with you
I don't care where we are, or where were heading to
But I know I'm lost, I'm lost with you, with you

Your mouth keeps moving
But I've lost focus now
Clock keeps ticking, times running out
Where were heading there's no heading back
Tripping, ugly, I'm losing ground

Wifekins!

2009-05-23T23:33:00.002+08:00

DAMN.
Their first names both starts with K, with only four letters. Yet again....

DAMN!

Played

2009-05-23T00:06:00.003+08:00

Its a hot day.
DAMN.

>:(
Had band today, i still don't like being librarian. I don't like the Sec 2 guy in my section, damn attitude problematic. Darn, i need to get used to this. And, I got back results, its the beginning dooduttes, chillyz. 8) Ok, not really, but still..

I miss last year, SYF, band exchanges uh.
Talking loads with Dell is so fun shizz. :)

F U KATY.

2009-05-21T16:06:00.009+08:00

This was what i found on Katy Perry's Twitter,
"oh gosh... really? Why do people force people on american idol 2 sing THEE cheesiest songs. Mountains and Hurricanes you're right Simon! EW!"

Don't you have ANY respect for Kara Dioguardi's song?
You think your voice is that amazing? GO TO HELL MANZX.
You just couldn't accept that Kris' voice suited 'No Boundaries' more than Adam's. Btw, hated your performance on AI the other day! Adam Lambert on cape konon... I don't hate Adam, in fact, i really expected Adam to win.

Didn't come to school today, totally forgot that we were supposed to have our class photo taken. D: So there goes my third year in Kranji, not gonna be published in the Yearbook. *SIGH* So got to watch the last 45minutes of AI Finale, Kris won. Didn't expect that, totally. I just said, "ADAM! Don't cry!". Life is boring at home, too mundane. Need to spark my life up with some rocking out soon.

I LOVE KRIS ALLEN FULLSTOP
I still miss _.

Set Off For Thrills

2009-05-19T21:40:00.003+08:00

How would i describe my day?
BORING. *YAWN*

Besides being the acting drum major for today, curricular hours were mundane to the core of the max. I hate Post-Exam activities. The only period i liked for today was Art. I have loads to explore during the holidays. Inspiration from Ms Lee's fab sketch books, damn, her art is awesome, got me thinking.

Texted Eliz just now, miss her man. Phew, next week's gonna be a hell load of shitz going on. Jamming on Thursday, i hope. I miss them!!! ):

SYF Fiesta, i ain't looking forward to it, i don't know why.
Not being myself lately.

New word learnt from Ms Ratna - OXYMORONIC. :D

Adik the Meenah.

2009-05-17T23:19:00.003+08:00

WOHOO. NIGHTZ PPL. :D
I don't wanna get my ass to school tomorrow. Really.

Stand up

2009-05-16T21:49:00.006+08:00

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down,
Just get back up when it knocks you down
People don't see where they're going, until someone else shakes them.

Slept for more than 12 hours. It felt so rejuvenating. :D

School on Friday was good even though the events were pure boring. Btw, had a gr8 laugh with the usual during the Looking & Feeling Good Talk. Haha!

Had band after school ystd, finally man. :O I felt so pancet(lao) cos had to support the whole band. I haven't talked to my juniors that much yet, plus i had to become librarian. 3 sight reading scores, sot bo! Had to arrange the scores all, thank god Pei Si helped me. I don't know but i don't wanna be a librarian... DARN IT. I need loads of practice to sort out scores fast.

Anyways, i love playing Thriller, the bass line's damn awesome and High School Musical 3 sucked! I preferred the one from the second one instead.

BTW, DO RESPOND TO MY PLURKZ! :)

What can i do on a pathetic saturday?!
No life, butch.

Running

2009-05-14T23:02:00.003+08:00

Satisfied because Kris Allen made it through the finals! :D
Haha yepz. Anyway, today's trip to Fort Canning was dead boring plus all the bloody mosquitoes. Nevertheless, still had fun with the usual. Headed back to school and Shaz, Fyze, Jing and Zona talked bout ghosts, freakin scary i swear. Freak, i wanna watch Uninvited + Unborn but the point is... do i have the guts to set my eyes on the show?

Nah...

Will be getting my shitty results tomorrow. It couldn't be that bad right?...

Let me think.
Is it you or is it me?

Outraged.

2009-05-12T23:02:00.003+08:00

Bowling with family on Monday was fun. Even though i thought that the NS Home Team was pretty much a creepy place at first... And i scored 81! And only 1 strike. But there were spares alright.

Had Art paper today. Last night i was chionging mad dogz all the way til 1+ just to complete the 5 piece prep work. Amazingly, no one managed to finish it today. Plus, i ran all the way back to get my Investigation Workbook, but in the end, they didn't even ask us to hand it in. Waste my time and energy only. I thought i did bad? I really dunno whether the examiners would be able to conclude anything from it. But i've made things as clear as i could. (:

Catching up with Nao for lunch today was awesome. But ohwell, was about to watch Lion King 1 and a half until someone just HAD to ruin it. *SAD!*

& I don't like Mum today.

MYE IS OVER.
WHAT'S NEXT?
More problems? Or enjoyzx...

Falling Slowly.

2009-05-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

I AM NOT PREPARED FOR ART.

YES, ALL THANKS TO ZE BLOODY COMP, I HAFTA INSTALL EVERYTHING BACK IN.

Ain't that perfect? Becos i've got more or less 24 hours to completing my 5-paged prep work and start deciding on what to do for the day. WHY, THAT IS EXTREMELY SAD.

Dear month of June, please draw nearer.
To be honest, i've only done one pathetic painting for the whole of the "long" weekend. Let's see how much i could cover tomorrow. NIGHTZ people. :D

Don't Sleep Tonight.

2009-05-05T16:08:00.004+08:00

I promise a good post + overdued pictures of study group with Jing Ting, Zona + Aishah soon.
I just need some time to study.

So far, a lot of mugging was being done at home. Drinking loads of tea is must. Studying til wee hours, staying up alone doesn't feel good anymore at all. Unlike last time, when i was so motivated, so engrossed in studying that i didn't even take note of the time. *SIGH*
I need to talk to someone.

There's so many things that were amazing last time, now things changed.
And its for the better. :)
I felt good today.

Missed.

2009-04-24T15:06:00.008+08:00

Di & Eliz! :D
The pic was taken after the movie, and it was in the changing diapers room, mind you.

I miss BAND! And the hss bandiez. (:
Just felt like posting these pics. SYF just brings back loads of memories.
By the way, today's paper sucked.
Credits to Eliz for the fotos!

Last night's study with Shazy rocked. Haha, only we laughed about the cikgu thing. And everyone is loving the WONDERGIRLS. That includes Shazwani. At first i thought it was some ultra cool three-girl english band or smth, but instead it was K-Pop. Yeah, that. The.. "I want nobody nobody but YOU! *Clapclap clap*" thIng.

All the best for Mid Years. Yes, I shall refrain from the computer for nao.

Rahrah and RynRyn :8)
Right after we've performed, the feeling was just amazing. I could just recall us getting all high after that. So fun.

Wallyzx :} *unglam*
Nan Chiau High exchange, stupid benches. How to reach the mouthpiece?!

Keithzx :D
"Eh don't waste food ley.." -Keith
"Really i don't want to eat." -Bird
"Aiya... I know you want to share with me la"
Eliz drops the tictac box into the bowl, LOL!

JackYson! :O :O :O
*hides his diary when he finally found out i was malay*
Was reading his Indon diary, yes he is Chinese + Indon.

PHEW I SHOULD STUDY NOW SOMEONE OR SMTH PLS MOTIVATE ME!!!!1

~

2009-04-23T23:33:00.005+08:00

I think i'm feeling a little nervous for tomorrow's paper. What's more, there's a whole lot of things i have to do during the weekends. Now if only i could just stop thinking of shits.
And i wonder why... why is everyone getting unhappier and moodier everyday? It ain't fun, i try my best to make people this world a better place.

What's the point of being with someone you don't like?
Some times, i feel like escaping my fate.
So i do, i'll run away from things, facts, lies and acts.
Because all these seem to confuse me.

I feel so hollow, that's the perfect word.

I think we're so close, yet we're so far.
Its tearing me apart.

Darn

2009-04-21T18:47:00.005+08:00

Shit school.
I mean, what is with this mountainous amount of homeworks the 'chers are giving us man?
MYE starts this Friday. I have yet to revise more on my malay! :O

Okay, i have to put distractions aside but the sight of the monitor being untouched tempts me. So i have to get my hands here. Alright, shall stop procrastinating i have got Physics to study for, Maths & Chemistry to complete, Malay to revise on, Chemistry to be revised on too. GOOD OR WHAT? There's still tests on the week your exams are gonna start. Amazing amazing Kranji.

I miss going out with the mad and nutz ppl. *Sad* But nvrmind, right after school ends, i'm gonna go out with them, so that means i have to work hard now if not mum would never allow. I have also found the Macro function on my camera, its DARN AWESOME. It was a week ago but only now i'm saying this okay bye imma study like a geek bitch. 8)

Random: I love playing badminton and my rockin friends. :D :D :D

Bitter Taste.

2009-04-12T21:12:00.005+08:00

Green Hills Fantasy - Kranji Secondary School

Whoever uploaded this is an angel. Omg, totally reminds me of that very day.
How amazing the feeling was to be on that stage, full of confidence, but under pressure at the same time. How i felt looking at Sir the whole time. SO KEWL.

Ok anyways, met up with Eliz and Keith at City Hall, they wanted to have lunch so went to Marina Square. Went to Esplanade after, and it was my first time seeing a string bass close up, so kewl shit. Anyway, we reached pretty early and we had to seat in front. And then Keith came up with an idea of going to the toilet then sneaking up to Circle 1, so we did. And managed to get a good view from the top. The SWS concert was good, nice songs plus Sir had a solo haha. So kewt.

After, we went to JAM and penin for an hour. On the way there, there was some kind of THAI PARTY. Omg, disgusting man, its like you're in Thai itself! So Eliz on the Bass/Guitars/Vox, Keith on the Drums and me on guitz, pathetic much? Played Tongue Tied, Save Me, Teardrops on My Guitar(Rock Ver) and That's What You Get. Woo man it rocked. :D

Had dinner at Sakura, haha it was gr8 went home after that thanks to Mum.

Truth In Cliche.

2009-04-11T21:47:00.006+08:00

Went to meet the Elizabeth, Dian, Keith and Jackson ystd for Fast and Furious 4 at Vivo. While waiting, we went to Toys R Us to kill time. Ok it was stupid but had loads of laughter. The movie wasn't that bad la, i bet there's another continuation for it.

Then before the movie started, mum called, gave me the fright of my life, and then she was ok all of sudden. Btw, thanks Bird and Keith haha. So after the movie had dinner and talked a lil and then went off. LET THE PICZ DO THE TALKZX.

Sick.

2009-04-10T14:14:00.003+08:00

My eyes feel puffy.
My throat is as dry as the desert.
My head is absorbing each and every sound.
My thoughts are spinning as if they are in a never ending carousel.
My pulse is getting more and more irregular by the second.

I feel like talking to some one who could understand, someone who knows how to deal with all these.
Being lovesick sucks.

Enough for Now.

2009-04-07T21:23:00.007+08:00

I just need some time to sort things out with myself.

Nevertheless, i almost died from laughter madness with the HSSCB tubistz & string bassists on Monday. :D

The Big Day.

2009-04-03T22:09:00.004+08:00

We've got a silver. I KNOW IT AIN'T A BIG DEAL.
Bad enough cos people are sad, i am happy because..
I KNOW, WE DID OUR very BEST.

And now, for the thanking..
1st of all...
SIR!!! You're the best, the one and only conductor that will rock my whole 4/5 years in band. Please please continue your journey here in Kranji, cos we LUBB you! Hai, i don't know what we would become if it wasn't for you. YOU are the heart of the band!! :D

2nd, majors - Pei Si and Zhen Yi.
You've lead our band to our most biggest win: THE GOLD BAND OF OUR HEARTS.

Of course, my SECTION LEADER, Awal!!
Its ok even if we didn't get gold, you know we did well! (: And i also don't know what i would become if there wasn't any guidance from you. Thank you for all your guidance man until now. Don't be sad ok, you rock, A LOT. \m/

MY SISTAZ! Hazryn and Basyirah..
First of all, Hazryn, you did really well despite the fact that you were sick. YOUR SOLO ROCKED, a lot okay! Don't be sad, we did our best, you know it for yourself. You were part of the solo, FEEL HONOURED!! :D ROCK ON BABE.
Basyirah, you never fail to make us laugh, thank you for that!!! Haha, you rock the brass bus and the lower brass too haha. WOOHOO LOVE YOU BOTH.

AND, all the other bandies too!
AND THANK YOU: Teachers, alumni, Nathaniel, Zona, Jing Ting, Wei Ting, Nysa, Nadia, Najihah, Amirah, Halima, Thaqif, Christabel, Naomi, Sya, Iman, HENDERSONSSCB (for praying for us for a MINUTE!!) and the rest who wished me good luck. :D

OH YA, lasty, Keith. :)

:/

2009-04-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

I NEED A LITTLE LUCK.

And just a little push.. from you.

Remember to Breathe.

2009-04-01T21:37:00.004+08:00

SIGHHHH.

I don't know.
The world's spinning round and round, different moods i get from people every day.
Today was a little different, maybe if it wasn't for you, it wouldn't.

Picturing the very day that sums up our practices for months, hours of buzzing, minutes of reflecting on how we did and seconds of perseverance. It all sums up to that few minutes we have on stage. That is the time to impress, to convince and to show what we've got.

I don't have the guts to open my mouth.
Shit that man. Understand, please?

Faster than a Cannonball

2009-03-28T22:17:00.004+08:00

Time flies, like damn fast.
So band had our final exchange at Holy Innocent's. 5 bands in total, according some people, we were the best band there today. So yay us! But it wouldn't make me complacent, i still wanna do better. Like, imagine us being compared to Yuying? we're the small friez(teehee). There was Sir Shai conducting Siling Military Band. Their band was cheering for us. Sir Shai, we miss you so much!!!

Lunch with the sisterz as for usual and i am so happy for them, haha! :D While me, on the other hand, is still catching up with things.. Combined and the band was high after fall-in again. I hope we'll all work hard for this, we know we want it badly.

I spared a thought for Sir and tried i placing myself in his shoes.
Imagine, can you handle two or more bands at the same time? From the look of his face, i can see that he IS really really shagged and worn out. How i wish i could repay everything that he's done for us, how i wish i could do something to help.. Yet, i am still just another typical bandie. Now, all i can do is just the give my ultra ultimate on that very day. Its exactly the same thing as working hard for my studies just to make my parents happy~

Uh-Huh

2009-03-26T21:08:00.004+08:00

Buried deep down, lies a feeling.
Maybe its just a little too obvious.
Maybe i'm overreacting. Take it slow, he whispered.

Am contented that mum's happy with my results, i was expecting for the worst actually. Maybe crying on the spot or something for Parent-teacher meeting, in the end, it was just smiles and creating some room for improvements. Hmm, yes i do need to improve.

And yes! SCORE FOR ART MANZXS! Omg, happy or what? But i still gotta do better for English(bleah) and Add. Maths. Hokay, SYF's is in a week's time. Plan for tomorrow, do my god damn best and also, concentrate during all of my lessons. Despite waking up at 4am just to study for chemistry, i think i managed to write down all the formulae within the shortest time. Haha, thanks to mum for waking me up cos i fell asleep.

Yay A. Maths test too. Yippeezx.

F for FOCUS.

2009-03-25T21:33:00.004+08:00

Studies aside, there's a lot more we have to cover for band.
With only 9 days left, i promise to give all that i've got for now.

I don't care whatever that happens but, i still have to manage my time.
TIME IS PRECIOUS. For this very moment.
How i wish i could have practices everyday until the day comes.

I am trying to suit myself still with Express, at the same time, trying to cope with all the band practices. So many things to handle, so little time. 4 more practices, give all you got, drain yourself out, cos you've got nothing to lose. When you're there, you there.

Like what sir said, "Life is full with UNCERTAINTY."
And life's full of shit too.

Things are inside out.

2009-03-20T21:24:00.005+08:00

My face, muke smemeh.

I AM A HAPPY DUCK.

Alright, i just came back from band camp today. I have to say the camp was really beneficial and it ran so smoothly like totally.

Day 1:
Was late for fall-in, i overslept + i had to wait for the darn slow cashier at NTUC as i wanted to get some chocs for Henderson. So we all headed to HSS soon after, and guess what, the bus arrived late too! Wah shit so suay. Reached Henderson and quickly sat down and all. The bands there were all good. Henderson did well too and so did Yuying. Had break in between and then started practicing and then crapping with the uber kewl tubists + strings. (: Since we were the 9th band to peform, i think overall we sounded pretty good. Except the fact that we were sharp.

So after the whole thing, we all got high and took picsyz and laughed a lot. Elizabeth the Bird and Awal lol. We left soon after and i was sad, if only we had camp with them, wouldn't that be awesome?

Lunch at school and then had sectionals in the air conditioned room with the lower brasses. Washed up, and then had dinner. BUNK ONE! Is so kewl, cos we've got our own bunk makan cheer man! After that, was intensive practicing, all the way till 12 plus with the company of Keith via sms, haha. And sir was telling us scary stories + joking and all. Made the practice real awesome. Supper, welfare rocked campbell soup. Haha. Back to band room for stuff, and then lights off.

PICS AT EXCHANGE!

16 shot shizz. Mil + Wal madness. Haha

@ Zhenghua on Wednesday.

Day 2:
Woke up early and managed to bathe! Haha first time or what sia bathe in the morning in school. Had PT, hmm, i think it wasn't bad compared to last year. Heh. Bfast and then back music room to prac. And didn't sound good. So yeah.

NEEDA DO MY SHITTY HOME WORK.
SO BAI.

So Fast

2009-03-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

Wow today's bands were real good. Henderson was darn scary because they improved tremendously wah shit. We've already lost to them, we used to be better. But nehmind, i shall inspire myself to do much, much better. For my One and Only Sir.

You move so quickly,
so quick i could never catch up.
You don't see it in your head.

Redeem

2009-03-17T22:33:00.005+08:00

I've yet to start on my holiday assignments and try to complete at least half of my Investigation.
Other than that, we've got the NE Wall revamped within two days. & I love Ms Annabel for being such an awesome teacher and sponsoring all our mealz!

YAY ART PEOPLE. 8)

Tmrw: Band 8am-5pm
Thurs & Fri: Band Camp
Sat: NE Wall finishing touches + outz with the art kiddoz.

Even Now

2009-03-16T22:12:00.002+08:00

Today was an extremely long day, and i'm really tired.

In the morning, i had English Oral, and man, i really suck at oral. I'll just go, "Umm" and "Errr.." all for picture discussion. After that, Shaz, Fyze and me went off to Mac for breakfast. Its been a million years since i had Macs bfast. Chatted a little. (:

Besides that, i also managed to make some time for meeting up with Twein! Spend so much time just searching for the right table for her. Heh, finally we got a seat. And i saw Reza! As funny as ever.. And also Gan Xin, looking fresh with her short hair cut. Failed attempt to study, ended up bxtching, woopz! And soon we went off.

Got ready for Art, and we all started painting the NE Wall. I think its really fun + we get CIP Hours too. Yay for that. And woah, the sec 5s paint really well. Ok Whatever, just go check it out some time soon k k k kehzzzz. KEH BAIX.

We All Roll Along

2009-03-15T17:53:00.003+08:00

"I'm starting with the man in the mirror. I'm asking him to change his ways. And no message could have been any clearer. If you wanna make the world a better place. Take a look at yourself, and then make a change."

-Siedah Garrett and Glen Ballard

Boom Boom Pow.

2009-03-13T21:21:00.006+08:00

Besides failing my e-math test horribly, i've got art and camp to look forward to for the upcoming week and all i need is to read this book i just got for Achievements Day. I'd really like to thank Mdm Rasidah for selecting the perfect books, titled '7 Habits of Highly-Effective Teenagers'. This book is gonna be my self-motivator, for now at least. (:

I've got a lot to catch up with, term 1 has been a continuous chain of tests, work and more work. I've just gotta be more relaxed, chilled and more smart. Work my way to the top because i don't wanna lose this battle. Am so looking forward to painting with the art kidz on Monday and Tuesday. I am expecting for the best to happen during band camp. I am in need for art stuffs so can the art people just go out asap? Cos i really wanna get my hands on new pencils and the shading even-er thingo!!!!!

AND, i've needa take pictures with people for my art investigation.
I want faces. Faces, faces, faceszxz! :8)

OMG, I am watching some one being possessed right now, like on teevee.
SCARY OH. BYEZ.

Be HAPPY.

2009-03-12T19:21:00.005+08:00

Hey, i know i've been stupid posting all these shitty posts on my blog.
Some times, it can't be helped! Oh well..

Since the common tests are so-called, over, i've been pretty much slacking for the week. Maths tests are all being chop-chop-cincai done. The kind where you don't wanna look at the paper at all. I have to control this habit. Its a different environment for me now, so its a little weird. Takes time for me to catch up with the smart asses.

I'm only contented with Art results, i love art to the max! :D Shutting myself up ain't gonna bring me anywhere. I gotta start talking, no matter how weird it feels. Hais, i miss my old class fer sure. I miss the laid-back atmosphere and the habit i have of slacking from day to day. But only start studying at the last minute. Homework for the holidays are multiplying by each day, so i have to learn how to manage my time. Out and about and also study at the same time.

3 days of band camp, i've only got 1 word for it - FOCUS.
I wanna BE happy.

Breakin'

2009-03-09T23:36:00.004+08:00

I am so disappointed with my results. I studied like mad for 3 days, its not as if i wanted to study at the very last minute, the situation forced me to. How the hell can i stop this things from happening? For additional mathematics, i was hoping for at least a pass, turned out i was lacking of only one fucking mark. How great, just great.

My mother tongue paper wasn't even that hard, my teacher marked it so leniently and for that i can't even manage to actually get an A1. Why are my expectations too high? I don't know, i feel like the common test were all set at do-able standards, and i can't even score high. If only i could find a way to put it in words for mum. I hope she isn't expecting too much.

The weekends were really full. Saturday's annual road run was fun running with twin. (: Went off for band. Exchange at Nan Chiau High was great. Stupid riser, i was too short to reach my mouthpiece. And i was really looking forward to meeting Sya, but its ok. After that i had kenduri at my place, damn worn out and i actually slept in my baju kurung.

Sunday was spent puking, stupid stupid food. Caused me to have stomachaches and all the puking was just disgusting. Feeling better at night, i did my home works all the way to 2 plus in the morning.

I wanna see the skyline and take light streak shots. Been decades since i've stepped to somewhere further than home.

I like the way my camera focuses and blurs on this one. So don't mind eh! ^

In a clear view there's a silhouette,
And I watch you and I cant forget,
Knew we were done when you locked that door.
Yeah I figured it out now,
Breaking's what the heart is for.

Life.

2009-03-08T15:16:00.002+08:00

Life is so.. undefined.
I don't know what the fuck to say about it.
I have to keep these things inside.

I don't wanna say this, but its crossing over the line.
I have to start on my art research now, i'm tired of looking at idiotic faces.
KTHNKZBAI.

But You Sleep Forever.

2009-03-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

I can't wait to start drawing some pictures i got from a few websites. But why am i so lazy to finish up on my drawing of a box of green tea? Because.. i suck at copying fonts.
I have this weird fetish of people smoking, i don't know why. Even though its a bad thing, to some people, i think it looks uber cool.

I was tooo lazy to get out of bed this morning. Every time, when i am about to start dreaming, the sound of the irritating snooze of my phone would ring. God, how i hate that sound. Waking up to another mundane day at school, would make me feel so lifeless. The word school itself, doesn't even bring much happiness to me anymore.

The stress is piling up, it adds up when mum starts to get to the point.
The stress keeps piling up, it adds up even more when you're not here.

Just listen to this song. It describes everything.

Everything seems different now,
Bittersweet and funny how,
Things have turned out unexpectedly.
And you notice how I'm counting down,
All the days and nights from now,
Untill the day I see you eventually.

Time Out

2009-03-04T22:53:00.003+08:00

Finally, those three consecutive days of mugging my ass off was kinda paid off cuz i thought i managed to answer most of the questions. History sucked black digz because i get all the elaborations all mixed up, and the answers in my mind will be gone just like that!

I hate the fact that they actually squeeze 3 different papers in one day. So much shit to remember. Anyway, lunched at lot one today and then darted off back to school with my school bag for band.
The weather has been darn hot lately. School tomorrow, sucha drag. The holidays coming, i wanna go shopping. I wanna waste my life away like the smoke and ashes of the cigarette.

As high.

2009-03-02T16:46:00.003+08:00

As high as the mountains.
As cold as the mountains.

Can i move mountains? Up there, nowhere near here.
It was just you and me.

And the only dream that's faded away.

Should i say 'go figure'? Naaaaaahhhzxz.

Dreaded.

2009-03-02T01:38:00.003+08:00

I am finally done with SS revision. And its 1.34am. Thanks to band, i got home at 10, finally had some food and then settled down for more revision.

Today's rehearsal was awesome, although i felt the urging anxiety over me at home. But when i got there, it was a whole different issue. Privilege of being a band member, i get to report at 945 am tomorrow morning.

And for this pathetic blog right here, i apologize for feeling so lousy these few days. In fact, i am feeling lousy. The people around me are all lousy. I can't stand this. ): I dunno why, but are people just? Urghhh... i don't know how to put in words. No matter how much i've helped, it all seem to go to waste. People forget good deeds, they only remember the bad ones. All these is just fucking waste.

Dead Silence.

2009-02-28T15:56:00.002+08:00

Caught up, cut in the throat.
Tears swelled up in my eyes.
Try and never look back from where i am now.
I can't even recognize you.

Can't believe things.

Ray of Hope.

2009-02-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

And every night i miss you i could just look up,
and know the stars are holding you tonight.

AWESOME, the weekend's packed with band shit, and i have no fucking time to study. How gr8 is that? People, just understand the agony i'm going through right now. )':

Let Me Be.

2009-02-24T18:46:00.003+08:00

Finally, some time to post. School so far this week has been hectic, and to be honest, i woke up at five this morning just to do some studying for today's test. But to no avail, instead i got things all f. screwed up and i just can't recall the formula for wavelength. Now i know why some students just end up in Aesthetics. I wish i could just catch up with things fast, especially for E. Math.

I had Dental check up today, the dentist was friendly, thank god. My checkup only took like 10 minutes? But it was really painful process. After everything, i dragged my ass to Macs just to join in the fun on impulse. It was drizzling a little. Me and Aishah were deciding on to talk to our primary school friends, Zaki. Haha omg, he looks different! I rmb when me and Jasmine used to kick his leg and all. FUNNY FUNNY! (People, just 'wtf' me)

I can't freaking wait get common test over and done with so that i could get on with preparing for the upcoming exchanges/syf.

Speak low, if you speak love.

What am I doing here?

2009-02-23T17:08:00.006+08:00

ITS TIME TO WORK, BITCH.
No time to think of him. ASSSSSSSSS.

Tests to study for, homework to be done and catching up some sleep is needed too.

xx

2009-02-21T16:35:00.001+08:00

Cause when im with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
What you would do if,
you were the one who was spending the night?
Oh i wish that i was looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes.
Oh wont you walk through and bust down the door and
take me away no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes i'd like to stay.

Bubblewrap.

2009-02-20T16:36:00.003+08:00

I am finally back from Sec 3 Camp at St. John's island. It was great i have to say, i love all the instructors. There were loads of glitches overall, but still, the campfire was awesome. The class spirit was just there. If only i could express how much i miss 2G' o8, then maybe some should understand some times, i just don't feel like i'm in the right class. And there i was screaming my lungs out for 3G & 3H. Man, they were fab.

Even though both of my elbows were injured, my back ached, my eyes squinted at the sun, my skin was burnt, i still think i made the right choice to go for this camp. But all i want is for 3A not to have their own 'cliques' or whatever, and just be one hell of a good class.

Being in a completely different atmosphere right now makes me realize how much valuable my friends are, makes me treasure all the times we had. Change is good, change HAS to be good, but memories remain. Now i am back feeling more cherished and at the same time, so vulnerable.

I have to learn to keep some things to myself.

Reluctant.

2009-02-17T19:22:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna go for camp!
YAY ME COS I HAVEN'T START PACKING!

DAMN ITZ.

Near To You.

2009-02-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

I always thought that it will be this way. Never lay too much hope on anything. But there was something that happened today that made me spare a thought. What was i thinking?

I just had yogurt, made me so-full. I am in no absolute mood to actually study for Binomial Re-Test tomorrow, or even start packing my bag for camp. And yeah, i decided to drag my ass to St. John's island after all, despite all the pointless activities they're gonna have for us there. It's my last camp after all, who gives a fook?

I am looking forward to Band Camp? Am i? I don't really know, been feeling very lifeless lately. Thanks to Shi Jie, Zona and Jing Ting + Shazlin, i felt much better after a mundane day at school. I wanna pass english. I h8 life.

Pink Elephants.

2009-02-15T18:51:00.010+08:00

I feel so jakon-ish right now. Too bad, i can't find the right word to translate it to English. I have got two things more to do after this, i feel uncomfortable because i haven't completed them yet and still, i've settled here to do some blogging.

Anyway, i caught Groom My School on OkTo and Bryan of WGB looks so Brendon. I didn't do anything much today, all i did was Math and some malay assignment. VDAY was spent with band with Dearest Sir haaha. I went giving chocolates to the bandies. Haha omg Xinda so kewt. Full band was awesome, i was laughing my ass off. I don't know whether i've improved in terms of playing, but i know the rest did.

Thank you Rani for the card, Basyirah for the cookies, Awal for the tissue-rose, Hui Qi for the chocolate + sweets and Xenia for the hug! :D All of you are rockin people.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBIEEEE. 8)

Bounce!

2009-02-13T22:37:00.003+08:00

Like everyone else, i'm tired. There's nothing much more to say about the typical school days repeating over and over again. I'm so glad, that it'll be soon until i'll step out of this school. Fate will take its place after that.

THANK YOU Zona, Jing Ting, Ameera, Shi Jie(haha!), Jerica, Li Chuang, Shirlynn, Elayne, Hafizah, and Yvonne for the V-Day stufz. (:

Ok K K, immmaaaaa... do something else because i can't say something that's sensible rather than contradicting myself.

GAWD.

2009-02-11T22:26:00.004+08:00

Telephone made out of Plastic Wrap. (Mark Jenkins)

I can't describe how i feel inside.
I've got Binomial Theorem to study for tonight, a little bit on researching for art and then it's nighty night. So much different things going on, i've got to get use to this. I can't decide on things, where's my life heading to now?

GOD, HOW I WISH I WAS RIGHT......THERE.

Dello Bello.

2009-02-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DELLYSDA! :D
You're fifteen already, zomg! Haha, thanks for being the bestfriend since 'o8. You're awesomeness! Rock on babe!

PS: I feel accomplished.

Masterpiece

2009-02-08T00:16:00.006+08:00

One word to culminate today is: AWESOME.
I was freakin sleepy in the morning due to making cards late at night for Henderson's Band Exchange today. Omg, i was expecting for the worst. But i was proved wrong. DUHZ.

The tuba section's standard was average, i expected them to be better than me, instead it was the other way round. But they are rockin' people la. I got to exchange numbers and stuff. I got some pics of them, from their picasa haha.

BARITONE SAXOPHONE : Christabel. ^
Really funny, she was sing Mariah's "Touch my Body" early in the morning. Haha!

TUBA: Khaixin.
According to Keith, she fell 2 times ystd. Haha.

TUBA: Keith.
The REALLY LOUD blaster but he's cool.

And the pics were taken during their Disneyland trip. So kewl, Hong Kong omg.

The rest, Shawn, Ron and Farah, didn't see their pics on Picasa. So yeeeeaaaah.
Homework day for tomorrow, as usual. ):

I grew tired. You expired.

You finished me.
Now that I'm all that you planned.
What do you think?

Holding On.

2009-02-04T23:17:00.004+08:00

School can be very tiring nowadays. By the time i reach home and start on an attempt of completing my work straightaway, my eyes get all droopy and i will drag myself to bed and have all the sleep i need.

Had a little catching up on A. Math with Ms Thng with the company of Daryl since Mdm Mah's on leave. On Tuesday, i had hell loads of laughter at Mac. Stupid things like a random, psychotic-looking boy from Teck Whye Sec came knocking on the glass outside and showing us how he could bend his index finger. We thought he was some friend of one of us. Extremely weird. He still got us bursting into laughter after that.

I pray and hope that i would be able to pass english this year. English is sucky and hard, time for me to brush up on the vocab. How i much hate that. I'm on the verge of failing my english. Somehow or rather, today's test have got an exceptional hope of passing. And to my surprise, i actually managed to pass my 3rd A.Maths test. Although it sounds stupid, i find A.Maths is much more interesting to do then elementary.

Band today was gr8888. And now, if only i could get to bed and shut the hell out of my uncle. He's snoring like a wild boar.

You're on my mind.
RIGHT NOWWWWWWWWWW.

One of The Days

2009-02-01T12:23:00.004+08:00

Ferris Wheel.

Band Exchange at Yuying was alright. I thought the band did a few mistakes here and there. But it was ok, i think we still had put in great effort. Especially my own section! :D And yeah. _ was there, i'm sure some of them were pissed at me for getting so excited over _'s presence. Woops! Oh, the Yuying people gave us section presents, and they gave us something that contained PORK SKIN + sweets. Stupid stupid! -_-

I really wanted to follow the art kids to the Esplanade ystd. Unfortunately, mum didn't allow at the last minute. Darn. K i really, really have to catch up and buck on A Maths. A lil help here?

Hey Monday is trying hard to be like Paramore. I only like their dressing. Nothing too good bout their band.

Something i accomplished after a gazzilion yearz! {:

Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes
Won't you walk through
And bust in the door, and take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Angels on the Moon.

2009-01-30T21:56:00.005+08:00

I'm worn out, so shagged. :/
Maybe because i'm tired of listening, never had the chance to feel it in my veins. Now my shoulder hurts because of the stupid & awful marching we did today. Malacca trip was just fine, we didn't shop that much and all.

And i'm hoping for the best for tomorrow. If it's fate, then it shall be. (: I'll be wasting time on my stupid daydreams again. Band Exchange tomorrow and then the art kidz will head to Esplanade together! God, i have to complete my homework by tonight i guess. (But i did none of it.)

P/S; Will upload pictures at Malacca on Flickr. So check it outz.

Wish You Were.

2009-01-24T19:03:00.001+08:00

Did art for the whole day and a lil bit of maths. I have to start packing.
So HAVE A HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE. :D

Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreaming
And I've already suffered the fever of disbelief

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

Flashing Lights from Everywhere

2009-01-24T00:35:00.005+08:00

I've completed all of my homework except for Art. Am drawing FEDI. So far so good. I've got more to complete. I hate quick sketching, sucks for me. I can't do it. It'll get not so in proportionate. Leaving for Malacca tomorrow. I wonder what are we gonna do there this time. Bleh. CNY celebrations were fine. 3A was so enthu bout decorating the class, everyone's doing stuffz, including me. I wanted our class to win, turned out that the winner wasn't us. Damn itz. I wanna talk to someone now, but apparently, its not possible. So out of reach.

& I WANT THIS.

Take what you want, I will be just fine.
You will be better off alone at night.
Waiting and falling, constantly calling out your name
Will it ever change?

Leave The Lights On.

2009-01-22T18:33:00.009+08:00

Updates on NAFA:
Proud people. Cool people. Awesome stuffz there too. :D

Days pass real fast. All i know is tomorrow's Friday already. So fucking fast how time flies. A. Maths is getting better, what a relief at the moment. I have to read up History soon. My thoughts are all around me, so messed up. I don't think i've got time for myself anymore. I have to meet up with Wei Ting soon to catch up on things.

I think friends do change some times, some times they'll just forget you after what you've sacrificed for them. Some times, when i realise, everything's changed. I'm not used to it. I keep hearing the same name in my head, i don't know why i feel this way.

I hope there's a miracle.
PS: I should start saving to get a lomo cam. :B

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night, a naked light
A fire to keep me warm

You know we've been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door
And my eyes to the seasons

That roll out underneath my heels
And you don't know how bad it feels
To leave the only one
That I have ever believed in

Exploitation.

2009-01-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

Wowz, look at Colezzz. :B
Anyway, school was boring today. Naomi was stressed up, recess with Delly and Ameera was best, almost fell asleep during A. Math. Oh well, i think i could've done better. Hoping that i'll pass cos i got the feel of passing. B)

I am ultra sure that i'll be shagged to the max by tomorrow. And i managed to complete A Math homework tonight all by myself. Thanks to Wanyi who taught me a little on Monday. :D
AND. I think i'm going to Malaysia, again, on Sat.

But i really wanna stay home and study for the upcoming testz! :O

Caught Up In Time.

2009-01-19T17:04:00.003+08:00

I must complete my maths assignment by Wednesday.
I must finish up on my Chemistry Worksheet by tomorrow.
I must finish up on my Art by tomorrow.
I must catch up on History and SS.
I must get enough sleep soon before i start to doze off in class.
I must pray now.

I hate A maths, when it comes to the hard ass ones.
Its a bitch. Pfftt.

Will update on NAFA Visit and reply to tags soonish. ):

I Hate This Point Of Time.

2009-01-16T22:35:00.003+08:00

Some say this is the time for me to get 'moral support' from parents. But some times, i feel that it's got no use! I get uncomfortable and all i want to do is get away from them or either shut them up. I don't know why, its so undefined.

I've started on my homework but i still couldn't get the answer. I've clarified my doubts, but i still couldn't answer. Mf. I think i screwed English test today? I don't know. And now, my shoulder hurts from carrying the tuba over my shoulder. And someone had pity on me.

Shitty stuff, its back to marching in the heat. So i'm gonna turn dark real soon. This is random, i should go offz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMEERA!
I know its a little late-ish. You're 15 alr omg. So kewl!!! If you've got probz, you can find me. Its great to have an awesome friend like you. And i really am missing times in NA classes. Thanks for your company and stuffs for the past few days.
Rawk on babe. \m/ :D

Old Skool.

2009-01-15T21:05:00.005+08:00

Shagged from the long hours of lessons. The only thing i have in mind the moment i step into the classroom is... its gonna be a long day. Well, i could only wait for the best to happen.

So far, Chemistry's a bitch just like the teacher. Mf Mr Shasi called someone "stupid bitch" just because he forgot to bring stuff? Like wtf? Who does he think he is?? And he even criticised the person just because he's small sized! God, tell me where have the good teachers gone to?
Sick blacky.

Okay, Friday's gonna be full and so is Saturday. Looking forward to the NAFA House Visit. Art art art yay art. I'm getting sick of this shitzzzz. Fook! Someone's ticking me off. Thank you buddies for all your support. (: Oh ya, I went home with Mason and the rest the other day, he's kewt! So blur-ish. :D (Btw, he lives on the same block)

Enough said.

And be near,
Just for the moment,
Stay here,
Never go home.

Revenge is so much Sweeter.

2009-01-13T18:31:00.008+08:00

Luv Dello and Ameera for the hang out after stressing in A. Math today. (: So sweet of them to wait fer me. :D Hope i could learn to cope and buck up soon enough.

Talking to Ms Lim was okay for ICM in the morning today. Felt a little less secured, felt like a loner? But for god's sake, i wasn't! I am just plain quiet, that's all? She asked me if i was, but i'm so not uhkay. And i gave her the U R RIDICULOUS LOOK.

Shazlin said that she may be posting a picture of Min Ho every day for me. Omg, i would love her to bits if she does that cos i'm lazy to search for his picturezzz! Art is fab to the max. I'm lovin' it.
A. Maths suck to the apple's core, i might consider dropping it. ): & I should focking study, like, right this very second. Too bad, i'm stuck.

Studies aside, like what Naomi said the other day, You can't cheat your own feelings.

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were.

Way To Begin.

2009-01-11T02:05:00.004+08:00

Secondary Three life is TIRING!!!
And its the first week of lessons? Problems arising real fast, friendships, school work and Add. Maths. I can't stand the load of stress. And i need to learn how to talk to my partner. He doesn't talk to me. And every time i wanna talk to him, the words don't come out. Hah! Amazing Mil.

What's more? Band. I am trying my best to blow as loud as i can cus, generally there's only two tubists. SYF gives me creeps. And its SYF for goodness sake, who wouldn't be scared? Blame it on the fucky, useless people. Damn it. Its in March, another 2 months time.

Come home from school and all i do is HOME WORK. I can't complain because its the decision i made. I've gotta face it. Cracking my brain to find the answers and reading the dictionaries. Zomg! Need some time to rest to yknow? Its no more the usual chill after school and surf the web all day, long last minute studies for the exams and shit.

I gotta be prepared for the WORST days of my life. )':
While some people are just having their BEST DAYS.

HELLLPPPP.

Grrhhh.

2009-01-09T22:18:00.006+08:00

WHATEVER SIAL. _|_

-pissed-
Problems arising.

Nerd Junkie.

2009-01-05T19:03:00.002+08:00

And so, i was late for school on the 2nd Day. Okay, it wasn't my intention to skip or anything, but i overslept! And mum forced me to. ): So i went.

Joined the class for PE and Mr Teo wasn't there. Naomi approached and told me something reaaaaallll stewpid. Malay was surprisingly good. (: Had recess with the usual bunch. And Dellysda! Thank you so so so muchyz for the present, luvs. :D Will get something for you too kayz. There wasn't any teacher for Math. I was staring into the air, alone and doing absolutely nothing when Jasmine came to me and said, "Hey wanna join us? We can be a 5-person clique!" Haha. So i did. With June, Elayne and Amirul.

We talked a little and laughed about their ex-s and stuffz. Haha, a bunch of real nice people. And i'm superduperultra excited for Art. Zomg, we're going to NAFA. Yay, and the art class only consisted of six people, omg. And i made friends with Yvonne.

Lot 1 with HaFYZEah! after school and saw a number of people. Haha, and Bryan waved? And i saw the P___zzzz. Hahahah. Okay that's all imma do research now.

New Start, soon?

2009-01-03T15:16:00.003+08:00

Okay, i know this shit is getting all sucky, but i think that my class is pretty good! Sooner or later i'll try my bestest to mix around and get to know them and all.

And yayness, i got to spend recess with the bestest friends fer sure! =D A lot of people changed a little, and saw a lot of Dickies backpacks. Had band after school, that made me feel as if i was still in 2008. You know band usually do the same routine every time.

And thank you so very much twin for the present. I'm sure to get you something real real soon k? Luvs.

I gotta finish up reading the 2nd malay book, get stationeries and i'm gonna catch Underworld tonight on 5! Scary vampires and werewolves... Heh!

Not Prepared.

2009-01-01T16:54:00.002+08:00

Its 2009 already and i still feel the same.
No changes, feeling so empty as for usual. But still, nervous for whatever that comes tomorrow. Not much time left for me to pack, iron, read, write and turn in early.

I'm sure i'll turn in late again tonight. I have no resolutions in mind.
I don't wanna drag this two feet down the road again and get so packed and filled up with these things again. I don't wanna look at the teachers' faces all day long and listen to everything they'll have to say.

There seems to be nothing new.
Things have changed for me, but i haven't changed for things.

quickie.

2008-12-30T18:23:00.005+08:00

Random shitez:

Been sleeping late AND waking up late.
I lost my voice for no apparent reason.
I am sick.
I pray/hope/wish that the 3A peeps would be a good bunch.
I need to finish up reading on two malay books within 2 days.
I need to complete my comprehension assignments.
I hate Mr Er for telling us that we're a lousy band repeatedly.
I hate my life right now.
I might as well lay down and die.
Seems that there's absolutely no hope.

Whatever it may be, i'll be waiting.
Waiting for a miracle and for everyone to go, whoa!

Should i keep on crying?
Or should i wake myself up for being who i am right now?
Where's all the good people gone to? Why are they leaving me?
My beloved cousin, my friends & my bestest friends.

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION (for now) is...
TO WAIT FOR A BLOODY MIRACLE AND MAKE IT HAPPEN.

I can't breathe.

makes your blood flow.

2008-12-27T21:31:00.009+08:00

Malacca trip was gr8 to the max. There were just some stuff that pissed me off real hard, like grandma being so forgetful and thinking she's right all the time. If she hadn't follow us, then i guess we would be goin' places each day! >:(

Anyways, reached kampong at abt 6am on the first day. Haha, was about to go to sleep and then dad said, "Adik, got frog." I thought it was a joke at first, then i got up and saw the lil kewt frog. I was thinking of keeping it as a pet.. HEH! I know, grossish.

Woke up late the next morning and had brunch. Got ready and then watched adik drive the car. Off to have lunch at kfc, then went walking round and round tesco. Grandma went for this fish spa thingo were the fish will remove all the toxic from your feet. Its kewl, but to me i think it's a little cruel cos the fish is apparently being fed with TOXICZZZ! :O And they'll die if they have too much toxic in their bodies. Woah.

Dinnered at this awesome awesome place with great atmosphere and jazz music playing. The food tasted much like homecooked food which i luvv! Was in the car and i saw a ferris wheel! So dad just tried to drive to where the place is. And luckily, he got the parking and we went to the Pirate Park! Took the Pirate Ship (Viking), damn scary but fantastic at the same time. Felt my heart thumping out of my chest, like wowz! And then took the Ferris Wheel. I can't get enough of that. And this time, i didn't scream. In fact i was singing. -_-

It was so good to hear that Aunt was coming over! Syafiq and Syafiqah = kewtness! :D

2nd Day was spent at home. Killed antzz, there's so many ants i just felt like burning the whole house down! & I learned how to drive! Haha, omg imma total noob at driving, to the max. The first try was scaring my brother's ass off. It was like, "Accelerate - VROOOMM. Break!! - *THUMP!*" Haha, my brother had to put on three seatbelts after that. :) Entertained Syafiqah for almost the whole day. Followed dad and brother to get some satay for everyone.

Helped out a lot on the third day and started packing. Left at around 6-ish. Got to the favourite bakery before leaving to get scrumptious bunz! :D

Great tasting food!

Pirate Ship.

what are you waiting for?

2008-12-23T17:07:00.004+08:00

Worked on Overture No. 1 and it was good, drills in the morning was suckish! Zomg, we had to run and all, but wtv. Sir talked bout guys who ain't straight, super funny. Lunched with the sisterz and saw Luqman who had diarrhoea in the morning and came in later. Eat too much ah he. Haha.

Left band and said good luck to the juniors cos i don't think they can play anything. Met mum to get school books and now rotting at home. Haven't really started packing for tonight's trip to ~~America~~ Malacca. B) So imma be back on Friday night. I don't want anything to go wrong tonight, it'll boil my blood to the max!

After the trip i ought to start studying and preparing for next year's big big big doooooom. Oh my gawd, i'm freakin scared for next year. Hope i'm gonna get a G-E-R-E-K class! =D Studies are gonna get tougher, just by the look of the extremely thick books, ok not really, but to me its thick AND heavy. Seriously thick and heavy.

Buaiiixx.

NO REGRETS.

Too Much.

2008-12-22T15:28:00.006+08:00

There's something in between.
But somehow it got stuck.
I know more now, sooner or later, it may worsen.
I'll just stare in sights, drown in thoughts and skip my heartbeats.

Cry in my sleep because i can't take my mind off you.
Its like a full circle and i keep coming back.
But heartlessness is all i get in return.

There's so much craziness surrounding me,
there's so much going on and it gets hard to breathe.
And so it is, just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze.

AM IN LUV.

2008-12-19T23:05:00.009+08:00

PURE KEWTNESS. :D

This guy is just so kewt. Was lookbooking and came across one of his pics. Hahah, k. And you know what the caption was for this pic?
thinking of the brown eyed girl with the dark, messy hair.

He looks Alex House-ish.

Sidetrack, talking bout sidetracks. Sir has been really sidetracking a lot nowadays. Haha, its ok i guess because SYF is not that really round the corner and stuffs. But, after Sir left today, Mr Er came and it was just dull and booooring. Oh well, i guess i really h8 h8 h8 that stupid Overture No. 2 anyway.

I knew he was gonna get all cranky. I can't wait for Malacca! =D

bottom of the ocean.

2008-12-17T22:40:00.004+08:00

Band today was oooritee.
Sight read a lot of scores like, High School Musical 2, Abba Gold, Overute No. 1 & 2 and some movie songs. I wanna play the HSM3, i don't know how the songs sound like for the 2nd one.

Had lunch with the sistazzz. :D
And, sir said that he could ask for an exchange with PR. Omg, awesomeness or what?! Hopefully, we could because it will just be fantastic. If, a miracle happens. (:

Yay yay, mum agreed on going to Malaysia. So i guess i'm going miss two whole practices of band. Woahh. I've still got a lot to catch up on, including studies. Like seriously.

All the best to Wally for his results tmr. Haha. =D